I have no idea where the time has gone. I almost feel like I haven’t learned anything new since I posted 12 days ago! I looked up what score I need to pass NJ’s DoE requirements- a 145. Of course the actual grading is somewhat elusive, but it’s roughly a 73%. If the test were only the 90 MC questions, I could get about 22 questions wrong, which just happens to be the approximate number of Physics and Chemistry questions on the test. Ha. Of course I know I won’t get ALL of the questions in any section wrong, but it was a little bit of a comfort at least. At this point, I feel fully confident with about 45% of the information. There’s still about 30% that I am totally still just trying to wrap my head around. I have been watching YouTube videos of teachers which has been surprisingly effective. I have even been using my Netflix to order Physics and Chemistry lesson DVDs.
I can’t help but feel like a bit of an impostor. I know that TFA had someone reviewing my academic history and that they thought I was qualified for this placement, but I do question it. Family members keep saying, “But you have your B.S.! Of course you can teach middle schoolers!” They don’t seem to realize I have no more experience with Chemistry or Physics than any other person that graduated from high school… 5 years ago… (and I have never had a class in Astronomy!). I guess I’m just afraid I will do a disservice to these kids who need that the least. If I can’t, for the life of me, sort out and conceptualize entropy what business do I have teaching it?
In non-Praxis news, my box of pre-Institute goodies came last Wednesday. I couldn’t help myself and read the intro to Teaching As Leadership and I spent my non-productive hours (when my mind is too much of a sieve to retain important science facts) listening to the audio file of Ms. Lora’s story. Cooking to Ms. Lora’s story, straightening my hair to Ms. Lora’s story, drifting off to sleep to Ms. Lora’s story. Granted, it took about 8-9 hours, which is far slower than if I had been reading it myself, but it was enjoyable! I haven’t started formally doing any of the exercises. Those will have to wait another 11 days.